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Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton
It’s a word that dances around the minds of many people in today’s tech-dominated world. I’m sure most people have at least considered starting one. After all, it seems to be a powerful way to share thoughts and ideas. Rumor has it that there is also money to be made through quality blogging.
Truth be told, I’ve pondered the idea on many different occasions for many different reasons. I’ve even made accounts on various blog hosting sites with full intent to really do this “blog” thing. All of those accounts stayed dry, however. I ran into the same problem each time I hit that “Create Account” button, the same dead end with each attempt.
I HAD NOTHING TO SAY.
“What could I possibly say that hasn’t already been said? What could my boring life possibly have to offer for strangers on the internet?”
What was I thinking selling myself short like that? It dawned on me tonight that I certainly have more to say than I had realized during my many previous attempts to join the blog train.
Here’s a little bit about me: I’m 21 years old. I live in a small, boring town surrounded by the vast cornfields of Illinois. Yeah, I’m that guy that sometimes says I’m “from Chicago,” when, in all actuality, I seldom find myself there and I’m a good 70 miles away. In my defense, I’m from the kind of town where everyone’s response is, “Where’s that?” A lie it may be, but “I’m from Chicago” is a much easier answer.
I’m currently going to school to be a teacher, Elementary/Special Education. From what I’ve seen, some teacher’s have some pretty interesting blogs.
My fiancé, who happens to be significantly older than me, has a 5 year old son (who I’ll often call Orange Boy, ever since I got to know Svetlana, Shameless fans feel me). Which makes me a soon-to-be step-dad. Obviously, I’m overflowing with thoughts and stories surrounding that red-headed turd (who I love dearly, by the way).
I’m also a transgendered man. I began my transition at the young age of 17. After years of injections and one long-awaited surgery, I’m pretty comfortable in my own skin and pretty well-versed in transitional affairs.
This next tidbit about me may seem to some as a contradiction to my last point, but I’m also a Christian. Pick up your jaw, it actually is possibly to be trans AND Christian, and there are more of us than you even know.
My spiritual journey began after living most of my life as a stubborn and bitter atheist. “Christianity” to me was a loaded word. It held a wide array of negative connotations pointing toward hatred, lies, brainwashing, and hypocrisy. “Christianity” has been redefined by a process that I will certainly elaborate on later, but in short, I no longer hate Christianity. My faith is still a developing entity and I expect my beliefs to continue to evolve in the future, but I’m quite certain I’ll be on that journey with Christ.
I’m also very opinionated. With every major event or controversy, I tend to have a spiel to share. Just ask my boringly UN-opinionated friends who are sick and tired of hearing them.
Often times, when Orange Boy is at Dad’s house, my fiancé and I go on long drives at odd hours of the night. It’s a nice way to spend quiet-time together. We usually wind up in deep conversations and existential crises. It was during one of these tonight that I realized I really do have so much to say. As a transgendered Christian and future husband/step-dad/teacher, how could I not? So here I am.
I plan for this blog to be a wide array of things with no primary topic, because my life really has so many complex layers. I’ll certainly talk about my accomplishments and progress within my transition, and I’ll definitely share some of my experiences and tips for transitioning. I’ll probably whine about college, and I’ll probably share some of the great fears and joys regarding my imminent domestication that comes with marriage and children. I’ll definitely share some of my faith and philosophical thoughts, but I promise, I’m not the aggressive, “you’re going to burn in Hell” Christian.
Hopefully someone can get something out of the words I’ll throw here, but at the very least, I hope that this new hobby will help me grow and evolve for the better.
Thanks for reading. There will definitely be more to come.